my konstantine.
emo rock. yeah. some stuff that im humming to on my lil player. haha. thinking loads still about where to go. and recently. i dunno why. like rj seems to be coming back into the picture? both are equally as far. both are blah blah. but.. the raffles thingy comes back to haunt me. am i really that willing to leave this 'family' of sorts? or am i just one on the edge. just willing to be plucked away. things wun be the same i guess. if i go vj. diff environment and stuff. new ppl. new lease of life. im half content with my life right now. and i really do enjoy and treasure majority of the people that aare around me now. for they give me a sense of comfort and warmth. i have my dad to fetch me to rj. while i have to take the dratted bus to sch everyday to vj. and. its far from a pleasant ride i must say. yeah. but still the conflict inside my mind goes on.
i cant help but be critical at this point. i can see it in their eyes. whenever i catch a glimpse of them looking at me. the look chills me to the bones. and sends degrading msgs of hatred and whatnot into me. whether they mean it or not. i can just read it. the stares from those who think ure a real a** and stuff. i used to be able to block these 'attacks' or something. but they seem to get to me more and more recently. and being the self-conscious pathetic boy i am. it gets to me. and it hurts i guess.
rj vj...? help. doublemathsdoublesci mathseconsphyschem..? help. will someone show me the light.
i guess. sometimes its better if there is no choice huh. but. whereee?
konstantine. the 10 min song=) .... with beautiful piano
i cant imagine all the ppl that u know
and the places that u go
when the lights are turned down low
and i dont understand all the things uve seen
but im slipping in btw
you and ur big dreams
its always you
in my big dreams
....
and then you bring me home
afraid to find out ure alone
and im sleeping in ur living room
but we dont have much place to live
...my konstantine.
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